Karen Faye Bolin-Smith-Wheatley

Dear Virgie,

I sent a notice to all the Angel Families and I'm sure you'll get lots of support. I know their isn't much I can say or do to make you feel less hurtful and lonley for Karen. It's a pain that you have to endure and for a long time. Just to let you know you are not alone, I'm here for you.

May of times I wanted to die just so I could be with her and not have to think of her and the pain...I would cry till I collasped on the floor...I would go for a drive in my car and just scream my head off (didn't want my neighbours to think I was a loonie)...

But thank goodness with time, yes time...I still want to do all the above, but I have learned not to....one day at a time, actually one moment at a time. 

Sending lots of hugs and luv

Donna mom to Angie Robert

xoxo

 

                                 A Hug From God

Sometimes I think I've got it all together-
I've figured out what life is all about.
It lasts a while and then it always happens-
A curve-ball come that I can't figure out.

I struggle to find my way through all the darkness-
the more I try the harder it seems to be.
Until I reach a point of fear and desperation-
It hurts so much I fall down on my knees.

A hug from God will ease a broken heart.
A hug from God will fill your life with love.
A hug from God who is your loving father-
is always there- just look to him and pray.
Oh, God please send your loving hug my way.

The room grows quiet as tears stream down my face-
the pain inside is all taken away.
A warmth surrounds my cold and shaking body-
As God's hand wipes the tears off of my face.

A hug from God will ease a broken heart.
A hug from God will fill your life with love.
A hug from God who is your loving father-
is always there- just look to him and pray.
Oh, God please send your loving hug my way.

It was 6 months and 14 days not 6 months and 4 days when I wrote on here last......now it has been 6 months and 16 days since Karen died...................................I miss my precious daughter so very much,oh how I wish she were here with me BUT she isn't,she will never been here with me again and that is WHY I'm in so much pain..this just can't be real BUT it is and I don't know how I've kept from going insane for this is the worst thing that can happen to A parent nothing anyone says can help me through this and I don't know if I will ever be the same ever again...OH GOD HELP ME I NEED YOU MORE NOW THAN EVER,ARE YOU HEARING MY PRAYERS LORD IF YOU ARE THEN YOU KNOW THAT A PART OF ME DIED WHEN KAREN DIED AND THIS PAIN IN MY HEART IS EATTING ME ALIVE!!!!! I love you sweet Angel girl my baby girl, Mommy misses you so much!!!!!

                                     ( To All Parents )

                    I'll lend you for a little time a

                       child of mine,Christ said,

                    For you to love the while she (he) lives

                        and mour for when she's (he's) dead.

                    It may be six or seven years,

                         or twenty-two or three,

                    But will you till I call her (him) back,

                         take care of her (him) for me?

                

                    She'll (he'll) bring his charm to gladden

                         you, and shall her (his)  stay be brier,

                    You'll have her (his) lovely memories as

                         solace for your grief.

                     I can not promise she (he) will stay,

                          since all from earth return,

                     But there are lessons taught down there

                          I want this child to learn.

                     I looked the wide world over in my search

                         for a teacher true,

                     And from the throngs that crowd

                         life's lane, I have selected you,

                      I know you will give her (him) all your love,

                          nor think the labor vain,

                      Nor hate me when I come to call

                          to take him back again?

                      I fancied that I heard you say:

                         Dear Lord, Thy will be done.

                      For all the joy thy child shall bring,

                          The risk of grief we'll run.

                      We'll shelter her (him) with tenderness,

                           We'll love her (him) while we may.

                       And for the happiness we've known,

                            Forever grateful stay.

                       But shall the angels call her (him),

                            Much sooner than we planned,

                        We'll brave the grief that comes

                             And try to understand.

                       

                                 Author Unknown

I cried as I wrote this on here for all though I believe these words from my Faith in GOD------Right now after just six (6) months and four (4) days it is just to hard for me to accepted!!!!! I miss my daughter Karen Faye Bolin Smith Wheatley so ver much and I love her with all my heart and soul.............I hope people can understand this!

My deepest condolences to a family who are missing a very special lady in their lives.

I can see from the candles that are written that you really are having a hard time with the passing of your daughter. I know the pain and the hurt and the lonliness. My daughter died in a tragic car accident. Thank goodness she died on impact. Her injuries would have left her in a complete vegtable state with no knowledge nor ability to do anything.

How easy it is for me to say that now. She will be gone five years next month. When she passed away, I kept telling the doctors and people that I could make her better. I'd work with her. I couldn't believe they were saying my daughter was dead...how dare they...how could they...I told my husband to tell the doctor to stop saying it, or to do something to make him stop. I went in shock and so did my hubby. It wasn't a pleasent time...NO WAY COULD ANGIE BE DEAD...she didn't want to die because we had just spoken about that and she said she had a whole life ahead of her.

She was twenty four years old and she left behind a son who turned three years old, three weeks after her passing. We are raising her son for her. Do you know how hard that is. He would wake up at night screaming..."I want my Mommy, I want her now"...I would comfort him and hold back my tears because I WANTED HER TOO! Everytime he did something new, it broke my heart that she wasn't here to see it. She was devoted to him. He adored her to pieces. THIS JUST WASN'T FAIR.......I WAS SO MAD....I WAS SO ANGRY....I WAS SO EVERYTHING....I JUST WANTED HER SO BADLY....SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND....SHE WAS MY DAUGHTER...SHE WASN'T SUPPOSE TO DIE BEFORE ME!!!!

My poor Mom still has a hard time with it. She cried nearly everytime she thinks of her. Angie was her first granddaughter and they were close. How is a Grandmother suppose to feel...I'm sure she has said over and over to herself I should have went first, I had my life, she was just starting one with Jeremy. She says the site has helped her alot. Please don't think I'm trying to sell the site to you, as you have already purchased it...I just hurt for you and I know if you went on other sites you would be with people who are or have endured the same loss as yourself. It helps so much.

I do have to sons, one who was 11 months older than Angie and one who was two years younger than her. She was my only daughter.

I remember getting on the site and I would read candles and sites and wonder how people could be so positive and relaxed in their writing. (like I'm sure I am to you right now)... I could tell they loved their beloved ones so much, but it didn't seem like they felt the same way as me. I thought to myself, I can't have more love for Angie than any of these people on the site does for their children....I asked a few, very polietly, how they did it. All their anwsers were the same...TIME!!!!

I couldn't relate to that...no matter how much time passes, I will never feel less love for Angie. But let me tell you...TIME is the healer to get us through this...I love and miss Angie as much today as I did in Oct 2004, but I have learned to live without Angie in my life, she is in my heart and thoughts everyday perhaps a thousand times, but it's with a little more peace.

I still ask myself WHY? WHY? WHY? but I'm never going to have the answer. Only God knows why! Thank goodness I do believe in the ressurection and I believe I will be with Angie again one day and it will be forever, but for now I have to be patient. Someone told me when God closes one door, it's for another to open.

The best cure to help you is to talk about her as much as you need to. The biggest fear when they pass is that they will be forgotten and all the things they said and did will be forgortten. Not true...Never can a love one be forgotten...especially when it's a child of yours...they are tatoo-ed on our hearts and minds.

Your site is very nice, I love the beautiful white rose with the water droplets on them. So pure and beautiful like your love for Karen.

I wrote to you, because when people contacted me when I got Angie's site it made me feel better. This is now my Angie's World and when I want to spend time with her, I come here and share my thoughts and feelings with so many others that are feeling the same way I do.

God bless and remember I care. If you ever want to chat my daughter has two sites...

http://angie-robert.last-memories.com

http://angie-robert.memory-of.com

We perfer last memories site but either doesn't matter. My e-mail is polopool@yahoo.ca

I live near Montreal Quebec. If I never hear from you that is okay also. We're all different and grieve differently. Just know you are not alone, so many of us know the pain.

Sending you hugs and luv

Donna Robert

Mom to Angie Robert

This is what Karen would say to us her Family:

                              I'm Still With You

Please don't grieve now that I've left your side

There is A peaceful place where I now reside

My life on earth is gone it's true

But always know I'm still with you.

The joy I've had,the love-filled days

The happy moments,in many countless ways.

Friendships so special,happiness and sorrows

Make memories last and brings Sunshine Tomorrows.

God called me sooner and though why,

                We don't know

There's peace in knowing it was my time to go.

When winds gently blow and the sun shines

                     through,

Remember I'm Free and still with you!

my sis i8 love and miss you so much. you was always there for me no matter what always came and got me what im i gonna do without you i miss you so much sis. was ask if i have grieved over you yes i have but your with me thru precious you havent left me you will always be with me i love you so much sis ty for everything that you did for me

I am so sorry that i never got a chance to meet such a wonderful child of god and virgies that has gone home to meet our lord.I celebrate her life the time she had on this earth and the people that was priviledge to meet her and celebrate  with her i also thank god for everyone who she touched in this life they have a better life because of knowing her and her being in there life.What a wonderful person she must have been.She will be greatly missed.One angel gone home 

   IN MEMORY OF KAREN SMITH, who, at the youthful age of 43, God felt the need to call Home . . . to be in His blessed presence forevermore . . .
   And although I never had the privilege of meeting Karen personally, just the mere fact of knowing her wonderful Christian mother, Virgie Bolin, speaks volumes!

   Although it is difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, may looking back in memory, help to comfort you tomorrow.

   With Deepest Sympathy and Love,

   Jeanie Fornash in KY (aka 'Earthly Angel Mom' on MySpace)
   09 June 2009
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   "When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart; and you shall see that in truth, you are weeping for that which has been your delight."

   "Perhaps they are not stars; but rather openings in Heaven, where the love from our loved ones pours through, and shines down upon us to let us know thay are happy."